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Yeah... that's my room.. the last thing I see before I go somewhere I hate...
Driving.... always a good time...
Me... driving... enjoying myself... see that big smile!
What fun this is... living it up on a Big Ten campus... so lucky I am.... *gags*
First best part of the day...
Worst part of the day...
Second best part of the day....
I've updated alot lately. I guess I have alot to say. I don't know what it is, but I feel almost philisophical these days, which is about as far from myself as I can get. I'm honestly most likely going crazy. I miss Marissa so much, I have no connection with anyone here. It's all very shallow in most cases. There are some cool people here, no doubt, but I miss Marissa, and I miss Grand Rapids.... it's funny I'm saying this now, as I've been here over two years now, but it's just the way I am right now...
It's very lonely here in Lansing at times. I don't go out of my way to meet anyone, of course, as I am typically anti-social by nature. It's really my own fault, when you get down to it, and though I hate feeling like this, I'm not compelled to do anything about it.
This is a fucking joke, this blog. I write in it for myself, of course, but honestly, if i was smart, it'd be a parody of all the people that are blogging these days with nothing to say. But instead, I'm doing exactly that: talking about shit you don't care about and have no business knowing.
I have this overwhelming need to be creative, but have nothing to create. I'm not skilled enough for anything but coding, and coding is so black and white. It's not like creating something artistic or anything like that (especially not my code - HA!), it's just a bunch of text. Boring.
That's it.
I wore this shirt to school today. Fucking pompus pricks.
So it seems things are better then I originally thought. What a fucking relief. A bit more waiting, but on an issue that seems to be unrelated.
It's funny how I can talk about exactly what is going on, and no one, save the people who know me well, knows what's going on. That's cool though. Blogging for the sake of blogging, that's what I do.
School is still shitty though. Work is still pretty boring as well. So yeah, it's not like life is that much better knowing what I know now, but it's a bit better.
Don't you come to me with all your color-coded quotes. Everybody's laughin', but they never get my jokes. Fool, you're a tool, a sheep, and it's obvious to everyone but company you keep
I'm sick of constantly waiting to find out what could potentially be terrible news... I should be finding out soon, but then again, it could just end up being more waiting... I want to find out that it's not as bad as it could be, and that things aren't so bad... I'm praying to god that that is the case...
Life is shitty, I've got nothing going on that I enjoy.... shit just seems so down lately... life is so monotonous, and when it isn't, the things that are making it more random are the things I never wanted to happen...
More to come later today I imagine...
